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In tough times, it’s easy to forget that you’re not alone. Sometimes, I need to remind myself that I’m not single-handedly struggling. I have wonderful people in my life but things don’t always work out as planned. Change, isn’t that a part of life? If so, why can change be so tricky to accept? Maybe this love was mainly one sided all along. Is being “in love” just an illusion that I’ve held on to for too long? Am I really that wrong for feeling the way that I do? Is what I’ve wanted been, in reality, too much to ask for? Do I deserve to be alone? I’m sick of replaying memories and asking myself these questions over and over again. Regardless of what I think, the essentials are still the same. If you cared for and loved someone, wouldn’t you want them to be just as happy as you?

I can only hold my breath for so long, and I guess this is where I let go.

I want to dissolve, disappear all together